aizadd

2011-02-07T21:26:00.001+08:00

Sick and demoralised.

What a good combination.I believe and have faith that I can do better for the final tests.This are all just a test from god.I will do better,amin.

2011-02-05T02:24:00.002+08:00

Hey PEOPLE!

Jyeaa,I'm back with blogging and updating about my life!Well,I hope there are still people who looks forward to reading what I'm posting.Ok ,lets cut it short and go straight to the point!So life had been full of up's and down's but come on,that's the usual because what's life without problems?

Lately I have been busy with school and producing beats with my man Ryo.Grades are utterly degrading and making me feel demoralise but,yeah got but,what would I be if I gave up and let it demoralise me right?I'll just be known as someone who's not myself!That's more degrading!So,I'm not going to let it affect me much and aim for a better result for UT3!

Let go for it!Jia YOU!

Love you guys man!

2010-03-09T01:07:00.000+08:00

Because I'm Stupid

I’m really,very foolish
I know of no one other than you
you’re looking at someone else
yet you have no idea of my feelings like this

I won’t be in your days
I won’t be in the memories either, however
only you, I looked only at you
and the tears keep coming

As i watch you walking past, I’m still happy
even yet you still don’t know my heart
I should stop this and go

I really want to see the day
I’m withstanding the pain each day
“I love you” is playing on my lips
Alone once again, crying for you
alone once again, missing for you
Baby, I love you, I’m wiating for you

I won’t be in your days
I won’t be remembered either, however
only you, I looked only at you
I’m making memories alone

Loving you is like having a beautiful wound
I look at your pretty smile also
but I cannot laugh with you

I’m thinking about you so much everyday
my heart is hurting in all these sad days
‘I want to see you’ is playing on my lips
alone once again, crying for you
alone once again, missing for you
Baby, i’m waiting for you, I love you

bye bye, never say goodbye
even though I cannot hold you like this
I need you, I cannot say anything more, I want you
I keep on hoping too, I’ll keep hoping….

2010-03-05T00:45:00.001+08:00

I've done what I should,nw its soon gonna be over and im nt gonna go through these shits in life again.even when i dont ask for much,the only thing i wish for to happen cant even be fulfilled.

Its okay,im gonna start anew & be a better person & forget abt the pains & the people that cause it.thanks to all that have been by me.i wish u guys all e best!saranghae!

2010-02-15T22:56:00.002+08:00

I'll just say one thing,life's getting too tiring right now.

Cut me some slack please.I wanna live happily and un-stressfully for now.

Please grant my request god.

2010-02-05T04:23:00.001+08:00

Falling slowly....

(당신이)그립습니다.

사랑해.

2010-01-29T20:48:00.002+08:00

Great,I have a sprained ankle.It's recovering though so I'm quite relieved.Being too careful sometimes isn't gonna be of any difference..

2010-01-27T21:38:00.002+08:00

I can't continue.It's too hurtful.Everytime I read,I'm curious to read even more and everytime I read more,I feel so depressed.Why must everything be a lie?Why must I always end up getting my heart fixed and torn apart time and again.At least let me have a breather so that I can continue to live on.The last time we said we meet again,we ended with a smile.Now,I'm waiting just to realise in the end that you're never coming back.I just wish to hear you saying to me that,"I'm here,I will be here just like how close frens should be,be strong and study hard."Please tell me that before I leave.Please.

I wish upon a star that it will happen.

Study hard my friends,don't give up wherever you are now.I'll be supporting you though you may not see me,I'll still be there.

2010-01-26T00:39:00.001+08:00

*Even if I die, I can't let you go*

Even though I'm young, the pain is the same
Just because I don't know the world very well
Doesn't mean that I don't know pain

Why do you lie, saying it'll be okay?
How will my heart that hurts this much
Be healed so easily?
How will I live without you?
That's why I

Can't let you go, even if I die
How am I suppose to let you go?
Whether you go or leave,please fix my heart
could you fix my heart so that I won't be in pain
So that I can at least live
I wouldn't be able to live anyway
I can't let you go, even if I die

No matter how much you push me away
I'll hold onto you until the end
So that you won't be able to go anywhere

If you're really going to leave, then lie
That we should meet again tomorrow
That we should meet as we smile
If breaking up wasn't a joke, then I

Can't let you go, even if I die
How am I suppose to let you go?
Whether you go or leave,please fix my heart
could you fix my heart so that I won't be in pain
So that I can at least live
I wouldn't be able to live anyway
I can't let you go, even if I die

We went through so much time together
How are you telling me to live by myself now?
I can't do that, I can't

Can't let you go, even if I die
How am I suppose to let you go?
Whether you go or leave,please fix my heart
could you fix my heart so that I won't be in pain
So that I can at least live
I wouldn't be able to live anyway
I can't let you go, even if I die

2010-01-24T18:37:00.001+08:00

Sonebody is becoming more bongant towards me nw..tkpela,siapa kn lahh kita kan?

2010-01-17T17:16:00.001+08:00

Im damn bored nw..wanna go movie,no one free.wanna slack,all cannot.wanna cycle,all lazy.wanna spend time with people,all too busy.perhaps it was a wrong decision to stay in sg.damn sia,i feel damn bored n sian.haishhh.it feels so lonely man.

2010-01-04T00:11:00.002+08:00

It's gonna be goodbye soon..

It's amazing how people can just forget you just like that and treat you as if you're their toy which can be played with and ignored all the times.It's really amazing how people say you mean so much to them when after that you actually mean nothing much to them.

Yea,love last long.Long enough to hurt you badly till you feel like there's no point in staying here any longer.You'll realise that one day when I'm away that I was really something much in your life.For now,you're still blinded by the fact that I'm just a blank paper.

2010-01-02T00:58:00.000+08:00

Nevermine,do what you want.You wouldn't believe me anyway cause for you now the things I say are all moonshine..

2010-01-01T07:03:00.001+08:00

My new year resolution:

-To be a better person
-A better muslim
-A better & filial son
-To get good O level results
-Make it to a good polytechnic with a good course
-Have more confidence in myself
-Have more friends
-Help people in need
-Be more slim but muscular
-Learn new things
-Become a singer

I have more actually,but these are which are more important right now..If u wanna know the rest,ask me personally..hee..

Btw,I had an enjoyable "countdown"..

I know I seem hard to understand but it's actually simple.All this while,all I need was you.You made me believe in things that I thought I will never believe in again or even do again..I wanted to get close to you,know you better & just enjoy your company cause you brought back the me that I used to be..Now when all we do is argue & ignore each other,I'm starting to give up & not believe in these things anymore..Maybe it's too late but I hope you will come back & be that spark in my life once again..you're one of the things I wished for a new year..saranghae fren..

2009-12-22T01:26:00.001+08:00

Life is full of surprises but when it gets too exciting,the sad part of life seems to unfold,making u feel so battered..I just need u to talk to and walk with me through this path..All i need is u..

2009-12-04T05:17:00.003+08:00

IRIS!

Currently watching IRIS!haha..I'm back to my own self,watching korean drama's and getting so addicted to them!wooOO!haha..

Okay byebye,I wanna continue watching.Btw,It's 5:18 am now..

WEE~

2009-12-02T00:34:00.002+08:00

Time for miracles..

I really don't have much to say.I wish the future unfolds in front of me now,so I know what to expect and what is worth doing now.Family is bad to worse,why must you spoil everything.Yet you get her sympathy when I talk bad about you.I don't wish to say this but you really suck.Friends are all busy with their own stuff.Work probably.Love,I don't wish to elaborate because it has always been the same thing.All come and go,none ever stayed.Nothing is stopping me from trying again,I'm just sick of trying cause it's just a waste of time.It's better to have guy friends and have a bashing time with them rather than getting emo over stupid girls.

Till here then,I'm just too sick to think about love or anything.It's time for miracles but I see none.Oh god,life is draining me out man.tata.

I just want to be with you,cause living is so hard to do,
when all I know is trapped inside your eyes.
The future I cannot forget, this aching heart ain't broken yet
Oh, God I wish I could make you see.
It's time for miracles cause I ain't giving up on love,no I ain't giving up on us.

2009-11-26T00:47:00.003+08:00

Only the strong survive.

I was praying just now and after praying suddenly I felt lonely.I sat there wondering who my real friends were,how's life gonna be next and what the future has in store for me.Being alone is a thing that I hate and I realise now that it is a terrible thing.I've been feeling alone all this while and yet all I can do is just pretend its nothing.Omg.Love makes me feel like I'm a fish struggling for freshwater.Sometimes it does feel like a kick in the balls but at times love makes me feel so confident and strong.Even the person I love seem to be happy now with someone she's in love with.Love,I feel that it's better I don't talk or think about you anymore cause everytime you say things about your love,I get jealous and it hurts.

Starting was hard enough already and ending it is even tougher.Letting go is sometimes the only option.When everything is already fine,it takes one thing to crumble down everything.I feel very down and suckish.

I wanna sit at the beach and stargaze,sadly,I can't go alone cause I hate going alone and more sadly is that no one wants to go.

"I wanna die on the highest height.Its the end."

2009-11-20T19:26:00.004+08:00

GRADNITE WAS SCRUMPTIOUS!

Well,it's an inner joke.Its been so long since I last blogged!wooOO!Been really busy with ENJOYING!I kinda miss school actually.I miss doing maths and science and I miss joking around during DnT.Ohh man,time flew by really fast.It feels like yesterday was my first day stepping into Siglap.Guys,I'm gonna miss you all man.I hope all my Bro's will keep in contact.Let the spark and the spirit of 5N1 go on forever!

I love you guys!

U see,I'll be like him!WoooOO.I swear I will be.MARK MY WORDS!
I'm a lil bit like him already.haha.jkjk.

2009-10-26T09:33:00.003+08:00

Time flew by too fast..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

Nothing to say actually.I'm kinda disappointed actually.No need to no why.I am thankful that I have lived this far and with this day,my only important wish is......

Of course you cannot know because if you know then it's not a wish already!

Okay people,All the Best for those who's taking O Levels and may we all pass with flying colours!

tata!

2009-10-20T22:54:00.002+08:00

6 days away..

I want Mcfly,Radio:ACTIVE DVD live in WEMBLEY please!

I also want to pass my O Levels with flying colours please!

Now all I need is a bit of luck and prayers.I CAN DO IT!

ALL THE BEST TO THOSE TAKING O LEVELS!

2009-10-11T14:00:00.003+08:00

Sorry for not updating.Been really busy preparing and revising for O Levels.Been having intensive studies on mathematics and chemistry.Mostly maths.Must really do well for my O Levels.Now,nothing else matters,not even friends.The reason I'm saying this is because friends can betray you anytime,especially those who you really trust.I've been in one recently and this betrayal make me realise that now its just me against the world.I'm gonna succeed and do better than each one of them,even the smarter ones!

Till here then,gonna get some rest and start doing my english homeworks and studying!

tata.

2009-09-28T00:33:00.003+08:00

Its 12:58 am now and I'm currently chatting with this beloved gundu right here!It's fun chatting with her you know.We kinda get what we are talking about(cause she speaks alien languages!)!Currently my MP3 player is being kidnapped by her and it's ok cause the batt's flat!

We are bestfriends you know!haha!that's what she said!

The song I did for you nice kan!I had my reasons for not letting you hear okay.

2009-09-26T14:38:00.000+08:00

FROM MY POINT OF VIEW.

2009-09-26T09:08:00.002+08:00

Translyvania..

There are things that I'm not happy with in life.Or even you.One thing I'm not happy about is that,I don't know when will this miserable path end.I wanna wake up one day,not worrying about my family,my friends,love or even myself.Must I always pretend that I'm happy?Yes,I can be patient but everyone has their limits to being patient.Patience is a virtue but its too demanding.I realise that I'm becoming a more angry person and everytime I pray,I feel so guilty over my attitude and reaction toward others.I feel like confining myself in my room and never going out to see the world,just like HE said.Even staying at home is a problem to HIM now.What the fuck does he want?HE is already a big problem in my life,and HE's making a fuss out of every single small things HE's not happy about.Family is the last thing I can turn to now cause this problems are never going to end till HE realises or get away from us!I get emotional everytime when people talk about family and how great their dad are.Even when I want to turn to someone,no one's here.Even you're not here.

At times like this,I wish I had a bestfriend or a girlfriend.Even the one I love now doesn't seem to care about what I'm feeling or what I wanna say.

It's Heartbreaking.

God,help me please.Ease these burdens and problems that are pulling me down,down and down now.I'm losing my faith,hope and patience.When I look at myself,I feel like there's no point living anymore.

2009-09-22T20:00:00.002+08:00

I think I'm better off without friends because even friends are not there when I need them.Life's hopeless.No humans are around to give me words of comforting and words of encouragement.Parents are getting on my nerves and they don't realise that I'm suffering because of them.All they think is that I only want money.When I ask its wrong,when I don't ask it's also wrong.What do I do?Can't I have peace for once?At least one whole day.I need it.I need a break from all this stupid family problems!I can survive without friends but without family,its useless.I might as well drop dead right?I hate everything.I study,study and study but all I can ever think is these problems.Teachers are a pain in the ass.Friends and School is already hell.Must life be this hard?I can't even see a hole where I can look into and see a greener side on the other side.

2009-09-20T02:12:00.002+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI!

YEAY2!

EWAH-EWAH HARI INI HARI RAYA JANGAN LUPA NAK BERGAYA DAN JUGA COLLECT DUIT RAYA!

EHEH!MANE BOLEH!JANGAN LUPA,KENE MINTA MAAF SEKALI!

KEPADA SEMUA UMAT ISLAM DI SINGAPURA DAN DUNIA.SELAMAT MENYAMBUT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI!

2009-09-18T00:08:00.005+08:00

Heartbreaking..

Been revising chemistry.Acids,Organic Chemistry,Air,Oxides,Reactions and etc..OMG..It's exhausting!haha..NONO,I cannot procrastinate!Okay,lets just say I'm taking a break now..hee..

Been writing songs lately..Songs about love,friends,world..I really wanna be a singer..Currently the 4 new songs that I wrote,only 2 of the lyrics are completed..1 is already in rhytm and is getting improvise..It's nice,I'm not being proud or advertising ahh,it's the fact!haha..

It's called "Heartbroken" and the the word I quote on top is in in one of the verse in the lyrics..Another song that is already has its lyrics completed is currently nameless..It's a song for my class..I'm trying to make it perfect and in tune..It's a hard song to sing but it's okay as I've got my dearest singing partner,Nur Farah to sing with me..We're gonna make it happen!

To 5N1,WORK HARD FOR THIS COMING O LEVELS!DON'T GIVE UP,IT'S NOT OVER YET!WE CAN DO IT!

To you,I miss you and I can't stop thinking about you but I know you're too busy and have no time to talk to me.You even said that somethings that I do is just a waste of time.

2009-09-16T15:16:00.003+08:00

It all goes down the drain..

Currently taking a short break.I'm revising my chemistry btw.Worried sick for my O Levels.Even nightmares haunts me but yesterday night was different.It was a sweet dream that made me smile and the more I think about it,the more excited I get.Afterall,it was just a dream,an impossible one I guess.Maths Paper was a killer.Oh god,I wonder how I'm gonna do for my O Levels.If only there's a gadget that can make me remember everything easily.Nevermine,I'm determine and motivated to do well.I'm proud that I didn't procrastinate that much now.haha.Okay2,I'm gonna start revising back.

tata.

wait,I think I'm going to watch army daze first!eh nono,I'm going to shower first.heee.peace!

2009-09-15T01:36:00.000+08:00

yelahh2..my fault..I'm sorry..

2009-09-14T00:36:00.001+08:00

eyecandy very busy and she's not replying my msges.so sad.sobsob.

2009-09-13T23:06:00.002+08:00

MCFLY IS SOO AWESOMETASTICBOMBASTIC!

haha..hearing their songs do cheer me up!

I made a cover of 1234,a great love song.Who wanna hear?

hee..

2009-09-11T22:22:00.000+08:00

I wish someone can say this to me..

"You know aizad, i'm always there to help you and be your pillar or strengh . I'll be there when you're falling. I'll be there picking up those pieces with you.. and i'll give you my advice and help you to move on.. and don't turn back."

I really need comforting now.

2009-09-11T02:59:00.007+08:00

The truth turns out to be a lie..

I am tearing out.My heart didn't allow me to say it out.I'm hurt.I was about to believe you,but when I saw _____________,my heart sank deeper into depression.One time you make me so happy and another time,you darken everything.Am I just another ghost in your bed?No matter how bad your life is,mine is worse.I'm getting tired.I'm a broken man now.My heart is nowhere to be seen.I wanna hate you for making me like this but it's my fault for loving you too much.I feel betrayed.Why can this heart never forget you.why did I even believe you?

It's true the heart never lies but how can it not lie when I can't even tell you the truth.

"Did I mean nothing at all? Life's a bitch and so are you."

2009-09-07T12:55:00.002+08:00

The last song..

Problems,sadness and frustrations never stops bothering me.Am I not human?I need a break too okay.Forgive you huh?Doesn't it bother you at all that I am very angry and frustrated with you.Even if I forgive you,I know you will keep on doing it!The most saddest and frustrating part is that I can't even ask anyone for help.I can't see why you deserve my sympathy and forgiveness.

I wanna get away.O levels is stressing me up enough enough and I'm very worried.Somebody please slap me in the face.

2009-09-04T11:46:00.002+08:00

Bubblewrap

I wish I could bubblewrap my heart so when it falls,it will not break again..

2009-08-27T20:39:00.002+08:00

Dangg..I'm exhausted and my brain can't seem to function properly..

Ya Allah tabah kan lah hati hamba mu yang lemah ini dan berkatilah hidupnya dengan nikmat-nikmat mu..Maafkan lah juga dosa-dosa yang telah dibuat olehnya dengan cara tidak sengaja atau pun sengaja barangkala kau lah yang maha pengampun,penyayang dan pengasih..amin..

Tommorrow SEAB going to collect out folio's,boards and artefacts for O Level marking and there's still a lot more to be done..dangg..I so dislike DnT now..Nevermine..Sacrifice and just do it..There will be results..I feel weak and tired now..

2009-08-21T20:33:00.001+08:00

must it always be like this?

why is it so hard to leave behind this traces of you?

imu.

2009-08-19T20:50:00.005+08:00

This girl here kan.It took her 8 tries before getting a perfect shot!haha..ni lahh orang2 yang pakai hp mahal and touch2!haha..Well for those of you who don't know her..She's pretty,she's shorter than me,she's SKINNY and her name is lalaa!She is one of the trio's bestfriend!Another trio is Farah..The shorty!

So today was very tiring!HAHA!DnT deadline is this friday!DAMN!must finish and concentrate on subjects already!gogogogo rohaizad!

So to finish off this entry I did this survey about my charm factor and this is the results!

-You are sweet a sweet and gentle guy.With your sunny disposition and sweet toothy smile,it's no surprise you're one of the most popular kids in class.Everyone likes to come to you when they want a listening ear.You're gentle,kind and always ready to lend a helping hand to anyone in need.While others may need to resort to ugly manipulating tricks to get their way,you just need to turn on your natural sweetness.Armed with saccharine honeyed words,you're ready to rule the world!

THAT IS SO TRUE!!!

2009-08-17T21:22:00.002+08:00

woiwoi..

I edited my playlist and SELINA GOMEZ is in it!

WOOOOWOOOOWEEEE!

2009-08-16T21:42:00.002+08:00

MY HOROSCOPE

SCORPIO

-EXTREMELY adorable.
-Intelligent
-Very Sexy
-Loves to joke.
-Good sense of humour.
-Energetic.
-Predict future.
-GREAT kisser.
-Always get what they want.
-Attractive.
-Easy going.
-Loves being in long relationships.
-Talkative.
-Romantic.
-Caring.

Cool ahhh!haha..almost everything is true!

2009-08-13T23:35:00.003+08:00

" The grass is green on the other side.Smile,look forward and you will see the side you've been dreaming of. "

My DnT teacher said this to my class.

"Your class ahh very weird you know,all of you turn crazy when you're stressed.Especially rohaizad,he keeps on singing when he's stress!"

Haha.YES I DO MDM CHUA!IT RELIEVES MY STRESS!

Okay byebye peeps.heee.

Oh wait2!

I miss MJ..

2009-08-12T20:55:00.003+08:00

They say,If something is yours,it will come back.
They say,If its meant to be,it will come back
They say,If you love someone,the only way to see them happy is to let go of them when its over.
They say,You should never try to cheat in love.
They say,there are many fishes in the sea.
They say,It's not over.
They say,Don't be bothered and just go find other girls.
They say,It's not that hard.

They always know to say what they say but have they ever thought what happens if things really go this way?

You wait,wait and wait.Hoping that the one for you will come by.You wait and wait,hoping that the one you love now will realise that you're the one for her.You wait and wait,and hope silently builds up in you.You wait and wait but in the end it all crumbles down.You still wait and wait,just to realise that you have waited too long for someone whom appears only in your dreams and not in your life.I've waited for girls.I've kept on waiting.Even through the toughest times and dark days,I still wait.But now,I realise its too hurting and sad to be doing that over and over again.I'm sorry,I can't be nice to all of you.I don't wanna accidentally fall in love again.I swear its fucked up.

2009-08-09T23:37:00.000+08:00

Too Far Away

"when all else fails,you don't."

2009-08-09T14:52:00.001+08:00

A Story Sadder Than Sadness.

Should watch it if.It's breathtaking,inspiring and awesomely beautiful.

A story about loving someone and letting go even though it hurts so much.The second song is from this movie.

2009-08-09T02:06:00.003+08:00

If you guys are wandering why I put korean songs on my blog is because this two songs impact most on me.I saved a draft on this blog but I don't wanna post it as it something I shouldn't be doing.People who are hurt in love,just remember this.No matter what you must be positive and remember that,that someone did make you happy before.You coloured my life brightfully and awesometasticbombastically!There's no doubt about that and I am still missing you even though I know its stupid to be feeling this way.It's just harder to move on.

So on friday we went to discovery centre,which eventually wasn't that much of a blast.Dangg.I'll let the pictures do the talking!

2009-08-06T00:16:00.004+08:00

Damnn..

Every night feels so lonely and I couldn't stop myself to not reminisce about you.(I still do)

Every morning I wake up and not feel the eagerness to go to school like I use to.(I want to)

During recess,my eyes kept on searching for you and when you're spotted,it puts on a smile on my face but at the same time the pain is unbearable.It has become a habit.(I still do it)

I still remember how we will blame each other for not starting to text one another.

I still remember how we use to debate and seeing you try so hard to get your points together.It was just so funny but yet cute.

How you always struggle in maths and complain to me about my "favourite" teacher.

How you always randomly ask me to call you when you was walking alone.

How you try so hard to not let me know where you live.

and lastly,how we always debate or argue but yet at the end of the day made a stronger and better bond between us.Making our days satisfying,fulfilling and smiling.

There were a lot more things but this are the things that stays strong in my mind.Because of all the ways you do things,it makes you unique and different from other girls.

Remember what you called me?the sensitive boy.

Remember what I called you?

What I regret was not to know you but to let this good things end without even a good fight.

I still reminisce and think of you now and then.I've tried many ways to forget you but you took my breathe away and its making hard for me to get over it.

I miss you.

I hope you are happy.

sarang haeyo.

2009-08-05T17:45:00.002+08:00

2009-08-05T17:24:00.002+08:00

YESYES,I'M UPDATING!

WOOHOO!!

I'm lazy to update ah actually but there were people who requested that I update my blog which is so not updated for like 2 weeks?Sorry peeps.Had no time to update blog because school is too exhausting that makes me knock out when I reach home!Okay,I'll stop whining.

So been up to a lot lately.Basically study3!School's ending late too everyday except for tuesday.Didn't attend to school today as I accompanied and took care of my little brother who got hospitalized yesterday.Don't need to know why.I feel sad actually when I was looking at how he got nightmares yesterday.I felt like I'm a bad brother.DAMN!If I ever find you,I will kick your ass and make sure you feel what he felt!How dare you bully my brother!damn *******!KF*.

Prelims is like in 2 weeks time and we're still not ready for it.Oh god.I MUST DO WELL FOR O LEVELS MAN!CAN'T WASTE MY TIME ANYMORE!

ok so I'll upload pictures to let you see what has been going on.weeee~

2009-07-14T18:17:00.000+08:00

in a perfect world,this should never happen..

2009-07-13T20:22:00.002+08:00

To you,

I hope that we can start afresh,putting aside whatever history that had happen between us.Keep the good times and throw the bad times away.Make each other smile everyday and most importantly to never give up in everything we do again.I am willing to do it and I hope you will try to..

If you know who you are then don't let me wait please..Only you can make me smile..

2009-07-08T21:13:00.005+08:00

May Allah Bless You Michael.

You're the ULTIMATE GREATEST ENTERTAINER & THERE WILL NOT BE ANOTHER LIKE YOU!

My heart goes out to his children,Prince Michael 1,Paris Jackson & Prince Michael 2.

You're dearly miss by everyone especially me!*sobsob*

This is so sad and touching!It's undeniable,your daddy was the best and the greatest!

2009-07-01T21:30:00.003+08:00

Never say never

I was blog-hopping just now and I came across this schoolmate of mine which I don't quite know.She wrote this,"In my school,being smart is an insult for other people" which I don't agree with.In my class some people find it hard to ACCEPT that there are people who knows a lot of things.So to make the smart person neutralised,he/she insults,criticise or even try to use sarcasm against them which eventually is a stupid and childish way of handling things at this age.Come on,we are 17.This is our final year and the beginning to a GOOD FUTURE.Be more reasonable when you react or do things.If you don't know things then ASK.That's why we have a mouth and a brain.To ask and to reflect on the situation.If being smart is an insult then I rather be smart because I will go further than others.The only reason I can see why you're behaving like this is because you're frustrated that I know things that you don't know.

To be the best you got to be better than the rest but for me when I'm better,I'm not selfish.I'll help if you ask.If that's the best people like you can do then I'm sorry to say this.All you will have in life is insults and hatred by SMART people.We'll see by then who will survive.

2009-06-26T16:13:00.002+08:00

Michael Joseph Jackson.

Rest in Peace.

Yesterday marks another loss in the world's history of greatest musician.I grow up listening to Michael Jackson and seeing his concerts when I was a kid.I even practice his songs for the Singapore Idols.No matter what the rumors were and no matter what he did,he will forever be the greatest musician/singer that I really looked up to.Some of my family members cried yesterday after it was announce that he is dead.Its pretty dramatic and emotional,I know but this are what I called TRUE FANS.I was only a bit sad because I love music and I know in time to come,no one can beat what he did.All the songs he wrote,all the moves he made on stage and all the love he gave to everyone.It's unreplacable.

I was hoping to see his concerts this year on television but sadly,even before the tour started,he was taken away from us.No matter what MJ,you are the best and forever will be.You set the bar so high in the pop music industry that no one can reach it.I hope you are happy wherever you are now.

From one of your fan,muhamad rohaizad.

2009-06-26T11:18:00.006+08:00

Someone said this to me,

"Let go.It'll feel better.Don't keep on hoping,it's no use.Its not your loss so don't feel so hurt about it."

I know that guys.Thanks anyway for caring and finding out what's happening just when I thought I had no one who cares about my feelings.So I recorded a song that I've been writing.The vocals is suckish.I just find it hard to sing it as it really touches when I read what I wrote.This song means a lot to me and I hope to you too.I'll record better vocals when I think I can get over it.For now lets listen to it.

Title:You
Artist:aizad

Maybe I've been needing you more than I should
Maybe I've been hoping too much from you
Now I can't believe what's happening between us

Girl I'm starting to miss you when I shouldn't
I've been remisniscing about how we use to be
and I just wanna sit by you and feel your presence
lighting my world,ohh yes you do

Girl I'm missing you lately now
Girl I hope you're doing fine
but the truth,i can't seem to say

I keep falling down this same old road
but when I met you things were starting to change
until you left and go away from me
I never wanted us to end like this
no matter how our days were filled with sorrow
you showed me that happiness existed
but now when I believe you're not here with me

Been living like a fallen angel
just waiting for a spark to relight
but no it ain't gonna happen now
and all i need is you with me
cause when you're here,i feel so secure

2009-06-24T17:38:00.004+08:00

Whatever I say or explain will just be plain bullshit to you.

Its hard to deal with things overcoming me now but I'm doing it though because my heart says,if I wait a little longer and just let go,you will come back.

I don't have reasons nor excuses for wanting you.All I have is this heart that keeps crying out for someone who just doesn't want to do anything with me anymore.It hurts but I'll keep trying to make it not want you if you insist.

2009-06-23T20:08:00.006+08:00

Its been hard.Suddenly it struck me that everyone in this world is two-faced even when they try so hard to deny that they aren't.I have friends or should I say,I know people who are bloody bastards.In front,they act nice and friendly but behind,they do things vice-versa.There are some who try so hard to convince everyone that they are the ones that you need and also they are some that do things or buy things that are cool just to stay in the limelight spot.

How vain can everyone be?

Maybe we were born not to trust anyone other than our family.That's why no matter what family comes first right?

but

If things were suppose to be that way,why are there family problems?

If you come to think of a sensible and logical answer,the answer is the world is fair.It is balanced in every way.Its just that we always take things for granted and wants everything to be perfect.When things go wrong,we start to push the blame,be depressed about it or even find fault in others.We never stop to even ask ourselves what went wrong?

So this phrase,"the world is unfair!",is just an excuse for us to cover all our faults and blames.I've always imagine a world so full of joy and fairness but if everything is perfect then things will still go wrong because it will be just a dull world,painted black and white instead of painted with colours.

I'm ready to face the world because I know that as time goes by,with all the experience and hardship I faced,it will be of help.I believe in karma.What goes around do come around.

When I was away,I realised a lot of things just by observing people.In this world there are always three type of person.In relationships and love,its the same.There are guys who loves you and only you.There are guys who are arrogant,unappreaciative and just treats girls like tissue papers and lastly there are guys who loves you but likes her.In other words,when he comes to a decision,it's too late.

I understand,how all this thing goes but as much as I understand,when it comes to experiencing it,it becomes a whole new thing.

There are no happy endings in this world.Even if it existed,it will not last.

To feel the true existence of it,you must believe,have faith in it and give it your all just to make it come true but a hand cannot clap on its own so it needs a pair of hands.

For those of you,who is depressed now,give yourself a break and find out more about things in this world that only you can uncover yourselves.It is a small world but a mysthical one.

2009-05-30T23:13:00.004+08:00

Touch & Go

I've avoided myself from the outside world for 3 consecutive days.Planning for S.N.O camp isn't even done yet.There's a lot to do and yet I can't manage.I guess I have been thinking too much without taking action.God really made me feel helpless.It felt as if I was going to die.Luckily,I survived.Thank You.Alhamdullilah.

The only thing I should concentrate on now is to make sure my health gets better.I didn't know it could get this worse.Having to sweat and shiver for 3 consecutive days and still counting.Having to endure the pain,the bodyache and the temperature of my body which has been unconstant.My mom sent me to the hospital just now because of this fever that has been making me feel so sick and useless for 3 days.Now all I need is rest,rest and plenty of water.At times when it reaches 40 deg,I really feel like giving up and just lie there and rather not take my medicine but I know,I still have a future and dreams that I msut achieve.I can't possibly give up.Never.I must pull myself together.

I wish I can make it go away.It hurts.

2009-05-26T20:59:00.003+08:00

Don't let the sun go down on me..

Today didn't attend school as I had a bad headache and bodyache this morning.I planned not to go anyway.School is getting so much harder to be in.I should have not pick it up back.I saw all of this coming but yet as usual,I tried my best not to let it happen but still it happened.I have no rights to question or ask god why because I know it is always what I make of it but even when I try to make it right,it goes wrong.I read this phrase just now.

"There is
no love without trust
and there is no trust without faith.
Have faith and believe in it,
then will it work out..."

Hmmm.It came from a book while I was browsing just now.I don't know if it was coincidental or what but I guess it is.I was sighing after reading this phrase.It is true I guess.Nothing will work out if at the point of start,you don't believe in it right?It all leads to one thing,you must believe.believe believe believe.watever larr.I'm in no mood anyway.

2009-05-23T00:16:00.002+08:00

HEAVY HEART

Yeah,I agree with you lalaaa..

Sometimes life's a bitch.

I wonder why at times you just feel so lonely when the thing is,there are a lot of people surrounding you.There were times when you needed someone but no one was there.Then there were also times where you wanted to run away from everyone but suddenly you can't.

I feel that we have lost it.Maybe its because of the constant argument we had for the past week or maybe its because wen no longer talk like we use to.I'm sorry if I've been making you angry.I don't mean to.I've been thinking that maybe we didn't really start back on the proper foot.That's where we went wrong maybe or is it that we didn't really have time to talk to each other.For sure,we have lost it.We no longer debate or be excited about anything like we use to.I don't wanna feel hurt or what anymore so the only way out is to let go.If it comes back,its meant to be yours and if it doesn't it isn't meant to be yours rite?

It's not what you want,It's how bad you want it.

For sure,on my part is how bad I want it but yours is none so lets see if u'll come back.

2009-05-19T22:50:00.000+08:00

TIME IS RUNNING OUT!

I have a lot of things to catch up on in academics.Not say catch up lahh,it's REVISING!hahaha.okok.I have started a bit.Must do more!

I miss someone.I don't think that someone miss me.

2009-05-11T01:45:00.002+08:00

Suddenly at 20:57 pm,Ms Fong texted me saying that this,

Ms Fong:Both your paper 1 & 2 are evidence that you didn't study.I don't wish to say anymore.

I bet she's disappointed as much as I am in myself.I realise that I've been slacking a lot.What's with all this last minute studying and revising?Shouldn't I be more on task and revising and making sure my path to success is secured and safe?Why can't I take action and prepare for the big day?Shouldn't I be worried like the others rather than be so confident about it?

Oh God,you've given me everything to help me in academics and I'm very thankful with what you gave but why am I so lazy?Why is it so hard for me to overcome this?What will happen then after I participate in the competition?

I must take action!

I've been slacking and also have missed a lot of my prayers.What a bad human I am.I'm going to put in more effort and make sure I'll do well for my prelims and secure my O's.I must do it!C'mon aizad,its your final chance!

2009-05-09T18:53:00.003+08:00

Hello!

So its been pretty boring I can say.Did nothing much today except for eat and sleep.heee..Wanted to write something out but my brain is stuck so not gonna write anything for the next how many weeks I don't know.Still finding a song for the AUDITIONS though!Anyone have any idea on what song I should sing?Do tell me okay cause its really frustrating finding a song.hahaha.Have many songs on my mind but just don't find it all suitable.It all equals to one thing,my voice isn't good enough.In other words,it sucks!Well,this is what some people out there wanna hear so I guess it should be satisfying enough for them.

I saw this book that is titled,"I love her but I like her".Kinda interesting at first sight.God knows what its content is like?haha..Till here..Update only when life seems interesting enough..byee..

2009-05-08T02:33:00.001+08:00

For once...I am lazy to blog!hahaha..

I'm gonna upload some pictures if I have the time because STUDIES have been tiring me out.I know its for my own good and blablablabla.....The reasons never ends anyway so tata peeps..wee~

2009-04-14T20:42:00.006+08:00

ACADEMICS!

HellloooOO PEOPLE!

Oh goshh!MID-YEAR EXAMS is just 16 days from now!grrrr..Study Study Study larr ROHAIZAD!

Nevermine like what Ms Leanna said,"Learn from your mistakes.At the end of the day,all this exams doesn't matter.The O Levels is the BIG THING and that for sure MATTERS THE MOST!"

What she meant is that,why are we all so demotivated and demoralise over our common tests and standard school examinations?We should learn to control the outcome.Learn from what we did wrong and make sure we do better next time.She has confidence in us so we must never give up!Don't even think of giving up because we are half-way there!Remember,O Levels is the key to the beggining of our tertiary life.Do well for it and the rest of your life will be well cared for but remember also to never stop learning!

I hear people saying this and that.For eg"tkpe ah,aku tk paham,ape lagi,TIDO AH!" & the most heard one is,"alahh ape lagi,buat bising ah!"

I just don't understand why this kind of people with this kind of attitude still exist in Secondary 5.If you guys want to do well and get into a good polytechnic then start now!Don't waste your time and life going to school but learn only 50% of what is taught or worse you don't learn much things at all.I've always said to anyone,if you don't understand,ask me or ask others.If I know I will help.Don't distract others who wants to study and wants to make the most out of every lesson.There are some people who just can't study when they are home.I understand them so let them make the most out of the time in school.If you don't want to study and only want to make a fool out of yourself and everyone else then get out of class because you don't deserve to be in it.Its even hard to voice this all out in class because I don't want to hurt anyone's pride or drop their waterface.It is everyone's concern and I think its time you guys wake up and make a realisation that time is almost up for us.This is not N Levels.Once you start late,you will barely make it.It's the real thing now guys.It's not playing time anymore.I hope you will realise this fast.

Don't take this words to heart because I care for my results and everyone else results too.I want all of us,5N1 to make it to a Good Polytechnic and Junior College.I want all of us to prove the people who look down on us wrong.

That's how I felt like today after looking at how the class is for sometime already.We can do it!

5N1!THE BEST CLASS!

2009-04-12T11:24:00.001+08:00

Ok,let me tell you what happen yesterday and on good friday!

10 April 2009
I did nothing and slept most of the time!huahuahua!

11 April 2009
This one is the fun day!haha..Well as planned,all of us went to Ice-skate at first but tak jadi because it cost $22 to skate for 2h and it was not wort it at all I tell you.The ring is not big and when we first came,there was not many people there so it was kinda not fun as the staffs will confirm concentrate on us and we are beginners for our pride sake!HAHA!We decided to go next time and so after that we went to BOWL instead!I tell you,I dislike people who isn't just sporty enough.At least show me that you give it a try.So at the middle of the game,I was just lazy enough and started to just throw the bowl anyhow instead.There was this guy,about 5 lanes to the left,he swing the bowling ball 360 deg before throwing it!It was funny I tell you!I decided to try but I only managed to carry it 180 deg!haha..The ball was HEAVY OK!So after bowling we went to eat KFC.This was the part where me,rul & fie didn't know what to eat.We caught sight of this meal which cost $14.90 and it consists of 6 chicken,2 med whip potato & 1 med coleslaw.it was actually a BUDDY MEAL!hahaha..When the cashier said that it was a buddy meal,I said this,"WAHHH,BUDDY MEAL MASIH HIDUP AHH!"The lady just smiled.So as we ate,we talk2 and the girls were talking about this lame game on facebook which I find pretty lame cause they are all 18 and this game is a pet game which is like for kids I guess?

After eating we were stuck cause we didn't know where exactly to go.Instead of watching a movie,we went to play arcade!The first game we played was a shooting war game and the boys played it.It was SHIT I tell you because my gun pointer rosak!I wasted like 2 tokens on it!grrrr..So nevermine,then we played this game where you throw balls at the screen and hit the targets and all of us played it!It was fun and at the same time,our hands was numb and sore.Everyone was like,"eh eh!bola mana?Itu aku nye bola lahh!AH AH,LEMPAR KAT JAHAT TU!CEPAT2!"It was hilarious I tell you!There are pictures and I will upload it once I get it.After all that game fun and all,we were walking and we came across this pet shop.Actually I came across this pet shop because of the cute hamsters!I went in and all of the others went in also.In the shop kan ade this VERY BIG RABBIT!It was humongous I tell you!Okay lahh,I was exaggerating but it is big larrr!Then I saw this display which had a lot of types of hamsters and I was looking at how cute it is!It reminded me of this girl who was really obsessed with her hamster!I miss her I tell you!hahaha.

So after all that pet-observing,we went to Marina Square Macdonalds to have a dessert!We ate ice cream till 630+ and off we went to LAU PA SAT!When we entered LAU PA SAT,the people chasing us were kinda annoying as they really follow us and kept on bugging us to sit down and look at their menu's.So we ate a lot of things and couldn't finish a lot of things also!haha!We discussed about out next outing and all and went off from there to slack at Clarke Quay and on the way,bumped into Nazri and Amalina.Slacked for 30 mins and off we went from there,going home.When I reached home,my eyes were very heavy.It was as if there was a BIG rock on my eyelid gitu.I sat on my bed playing guitar and after a few mins,I put the guitar down and went to sleep!So that was how my day went yesterday.Its not that fun when I actually write it out but it is fun when we were out there together!

Okok,I'll upload the pictures and let you guys see it later larr..waitwait!I got one more thing to say,TODAY,SOMEONE'S COMING HOME!JENG3!

OKAY byee,tata..

2009-04-12T10:41:00.004+08:00

You see this car up here?

This is the latest masterpiece of Mitsubishi Cars!It's the car that I wanted when I first caught sight of it!Mitsubishi Evolution X is its name!I've been dreaming a lot of getting this types of cars.Its perfect I tell you!This car would be beautiful if you install a scope,wing and hood and the tyres I would install the 21-24 and then the rims the one which I install in my Need For Speed:Carbon game!hahaha.I'm so in love with this car man!You see me beside the car?haha.Itu for show je.action2 sikit!

2009-04-06T20:23:00.002+08:00

2009-04-02T19:14:00.003+08:00

There's this song I wrote for this someone.People say when you write a song,you can't force it out cause it will turn out to be fake and so I waited and waited for the time where words will come out and I can turn simple words into a beautiful song and I did it.It may not be perfect but I wrote it using my heart and not my mind and this is what my heart wanted to say to you.You took my heart and breath away.

I sincerely sang and dedicate this song to Nur Amalina Bte Roazlan.It may not be as nice as it should be but you know lah whats wrong.

So here it is...

Verse 1:
Where are you now
Been trying hard to reach to you
If only there's an easy way
for you to be here with me now

You took my breathe away
and filled my life with all
your smile,joy and laughters
and you're all that i've been thinking of

Chorus:
and i swear
when you're with me
I'll stand by you
we'll be together through it all

I won't promise you my words
but I'll give you my heart
and if thats not enough
then i'll give you my life

Verse 2:
You're the gal that I've been finding for
a smile from you and it makes my day
its crazy how this turns to love
but I'm sure you're the one

Lets take things slow
No matter what it is,
I'll hear you out
There's no point rushing into things

You Took My Breathe Away .mp3 - Rohaizad

2009-04-01T10:08:00.004+08:00

Halo

It's crazy how love can turn things around in life.No matter how much people deny it,Love is still the most beautiful experience one can have.There's no use running away from it cause one day love will eventually catch up with you.The thing is once love starts,its hard to stop.Eventually there will be problems and all but this are the things that makes the feelings and relationship stronger.

For sure,I am in love.haha.I am in love with the most nerdiest girl in school!haha.Its obvious but the person I'm in love with is not obvious.Its kinda crazy though but I like it.People ask me why you and I replied,"why not her?"It's something that even the most professional psychologist can't answer.When it comes,it comes.You know when I catch a glimpse of you in school,it makes me smile.I'm always looking forward to going to school,cause I get to see you.

Its crazy how I could giggle to myself when I see about you.The way you approach me,the way you smile,the way you talk.You're weird but at the same time unique.haha.It's funny how you always want to win and how you persevere to not give up.I love your drive to study but you're pushing yourself too hard.Take things one step at a time,you can do it.You actually remembered that we met before when you were in sec 1 and I was in sec 3 while I thought that I just knew you this year!Maybe we were meant to meet each other.

Well,lets take things slow and if it were meant to be then it will be.

Thank you for always making me smile eye candy.haha.

2009-03-31T20:05:00.000+08:00

DREAMS

Lets just say that for now,I have no mood to do anything because of what I'm going through..

2009-03-30T16:49:00.002+08:00

You took my breathe away

Yea,she took it away.Well today I was absent from school.

Someone said this to me,

"Whatever comes our way,Whatever battle we have raging inside us,We always have a choice.We must choose to be the best of ourselves and not vice versa.Pick the choice that makes us who we are and what we want to be.Nothing can stop us when we have a clear vision and goal.Believe in it and achieve it.We can always choose to do what's right."

It struck me real hard.I have a clear vision and goal but I tend to not always choose the right decision.I will always remember this someone say,PERSEVERE TILL THE END!

Tomorrow must really concentrate on school work.Maximise my time in class and not bother the teachers after school.

Ok thats all for today.byebye.

PS:I really wonder what you're thinking?

2009-03-28T20:12:00.002+08:00

Chemistry!

GUESS WHAT!

MDM ONG IS BACK!!!WOOOHOOO!I'M GOING TO JUGGLE BOTH MY STUDIES AND CCA AND AFTER APRIL I'LL BE STANDING DOWN AND CONCENTRATING ON MY STUDIES!YEAH,I'M MOTIVATED!

To all my fellow SNO-ians.SYF is 3 weeks away.PRACTICE,PRACTICE,PRACTICE!But you must also juggle studies ok!Get what we aim for and finish what we have wait for.GOLD WITH HONOURS!WE CAN DO IT!

2009-03-10T22:56:00.004+08:00

There is...

Now I know what it feels like to be a Sec 5 student.This year,we are starting real early.It is a good thing though.A lot of my friends are already feeling the pressure.As for me,I'm still ok.haha.I don't know why but I can cope.I'm really going to concentrate on my Humanities and Sub-Science.I'm really lacking behind it in.MDM ONG,WHERE ARE YOU?I NEED YOU.

I'm aiming for VJC,MJC,TJC or TPJC!Poly is still considerable for me but I must get BIOMEDICAL SCIENCE!So,Mrs Warrior challenged me on my dreams of becoming a Thoracic Doctor.I tell you all who's reading this now,I'M GOING TO PROVE TO EVERYONE THAT I WILL BE A DOCTOR,NOT ONLY A DOCTOR BUT THE BEST THORACIC SURGEON!

School is going to be much worse and chaotic as O Levels is coming.I'm going to take things one day at a time and prepare myself mentally and physically for the O's!I CAN GET A'S & I WILL BE A THORACIC SUREGEON!I BELIEVE,I BELIEVE,I BELIEVE!

2009-03-04T17:48:00.002+08:00

Investiture

Over and done with the Investiture!It was my first time an emcee for a formal event.Usually I do all the informal ones.Was already sick yesterday but lucky nadine had panadols and it cures me for just 4 hours.After that it was back to having fever,cough,running nose,bodyache and painful headaches.It was a good experience being an emcee.haha.We did quite a number of mistakes actually but luckily cheryl is an experience emcee so she knew what to do when things go wrong!

I'm quite dissappointed actually because firstly only one teacher said "thank you rohaizad" and the other thing is that my fellow Secondary 5 councillors were treated like outsiders.I'm sorry guys and gals.

So this morning woke up and went to the doctor by myself.I thought i didn't have fever my doctor used the scanner thermometer and told me that I had a high fever.haha.I felt so weak all the way.Went to buy breakfast for my mom and sis and bought some fruits and milk and walked back home with mom.I still feel so weak now.Oh noo,I'm going to miss school for 2 days and I sure am gonna be left behind with all the new subject topics and the most important thing now,DnT!arghhh..what to do,I will catch up back when I go back to school.Going to do extra work and stay back after school to finish the work.Friends,do help me ok!

2009-03-02T22:05:00.002+08:00

haisshhh..broken hopes..I wanna go out with one of this girl tau..Maybe go watch movies and just hang out after that..get to know each other better and spend that one day fruitfully but it seems like its not gonna happen gitu..

tkpelahh..what to do..

2009-03-02T21:00:00.002+08:00

I BELIEVE!

Its true!If you believe you can do it,YOU WILL GO FURTHER!Today I prove to myself that I can do it!I planned to practice jogging and picking back up my stamina and initially I targeted 1 round around my estate which is St 22.Its big ok!It first started out as just normal slow jogging and slowly I picked up speed.I told myself,"I can do it!" and I believe and visualise myself running for 1 round arond this big estate then as the first round ended,I continued running faster and faster,leaving my lil sis behind!hahaha..I not bad ok,she was the one who cannot tahan already.She said this to me,"abg!abg ni terlalu fit ah!" and she walked off.haha!Now I'm gonna run every night for 2 rounds or more everyday!hahaha..Must be totally fit and slim by end of MAY!WOOHOO!I CAN DO IT!

O Levels!Well its like 6 months away from O Levels!I must buck up and improve in all my subjects!A1A1A1A1A1A1!HAHAHAH!You may think I'm crazy or what but you know what?I DON'T CARE!I BELIEVE I CAN DO IT!O Levels,you better be afraid of me cause I'm gonna score so well that all the teachers will be staggered with my great results!muahahahaha!

2009-02-26T23:28:00.001+08:00

imu.

2009-02-18T22:05:00.002+08:00

B'dae Boy with his mom!

Dia tak sure of the number 3..He's 3 years old!

he says,"mmmmm,sedapnye!macam nak mkn terus je.."

and he poses everytime he sees a camera!

and here he goes being so cool & cute!

ok BYE!

2009-02-17T20:10:00.003+08:00

Only one.

School was as usual.I feel so lonely these days man.I evein feel like turning ant-sosial.The cause of me behaving this way is because everything is in a mess.Pressure on my studies are rising as days go by and I'm already starting to feel that it is gonna get difficult.The heats for D&T are rising.WE are all stressed up over the Folio again.Haven't yet artefact tau.Itu lagi,terus mati seh.

Well,its kinda awkward how I was waiting for her to talk or even approach me.I walked in front of her just now and its like kita strangers seh but now we're ok.Remember what you promise me.Don't do it again,cause I really despise girls who are like that.Even now,I'm already starting to despise girls.

Okay,later I wanna post up the pictures of my beloved adik sedara!

2009-02-16T21:12:00.012+08:00

Like only a woman can?

I wrote this song last two days.Here is what I wrote:

this girl that i met

she's not a beauty

but i've been missing her lately

and i wish she could be here

a cinderella story

but the prince can't find here there

if that whats they call a fairytale

then i'll read it no more

when the time comes

i'll be there but its always a one sided story

and its sad to keep on holding to hopes that will never be true

I want you to know

that I'll be there and

I'll be waiting for love to reach to me

I'll make this the time

and i will treasure when you're there

if that's not enoughthen I'll do anything I can

just to let you know that I want you here

with me..

i wrote in despair

im getting deeper as days go by

i'll keep finding cinderella i hope it won't take too long

the looks doesn't matter

every girl is beautiful enoughi find her attractive

i wonder what she's doing?

well,i'll take it away from this moment

when the time comes

i'll be there but its always a one sided story

and its sad to keep on holding to hopes that will never be true

I want you to know

that I'll be there and

I'll be waiting for love to reach to me
I'll make this the timeand i will treasure when you're there

if that's not enough

then I'll do anything I can

just to let you know that I want you here

with me..

Haisshh,I'm dissapointed right now.Yeah,valerie was right.i kept thinking about you.The thing I think was,why do I feel that you're avoiding me.That kept me distracted the whole time.Who would have thought that my good intentions was wrong?You did cheer me up and made me happy and thats why I always wanted to talk to you.

Since you don't wanna reply my msg and avoid me,its ok.I understand.I hope you do well in your studies.

I didn't know that I will come to a point and said this.Alfian,ape kau ckp betul ah..

2009-02-16T21:02:00.002+08:00

Pictures do the TALKING.

A narrow road.where does it leads to?

Guys,guys,guys...

Mcm biasa!

I look short!

The O in life.

Problems....

2009-02-15T23:04:00.004+08:00

Inevitably.

Valentines Day huh?It was quite exciting.haha.Didn't really went out with any ladies,instead I went out with my ex-Siglapians friends!There were guys and girls!Only one couple in the group.I was alone basically.It was cool though.We went to eat at Zam-Zam at Arab Street there and after that we were off to The Singapore Flyer!The place is cool,there's a mini-forest inside it and I will upload the pictures later!

Went to the back of the the flyer and we sat down at the breakwater there.I sat alone while the others went to the private jetty nearby.I was exhausted and lazy to walk anymore so I just sat down and listen to songs.So,lets rewind back the time cause I forgot to tell you of one funny incident which happen to me in the MRT.

We were in the Mrt and all of us had our seats.Unluckily,I was sitting on the "PRIORITY" seat and a not so old lady came by and stood infront of me while staring at me.I was asleep as I was really exhausted.This "clever" friend of mine named khairul woke me up and showed me signals me about the lady.I looked up and guess what happen after that?I PUT MY HEAD BACK AND JUST CONTINUED SLEEPING!muahahaha..then he woke me up again and thats where I was "forced" to stand up and give up the seat so unwantedly!hahaha..They were all laughing as I was kinda blur and sleepy at that point of time.So next weekend we're going to the MARINA BARRAGE!Lets hope that it will be a fruitful moment and I just wanna continue being friends with them till we are old!

Today,I never text her.Basically because I didn't wanna annoy or bother her and also,I went online only after 11.wth?

A lot of misses I guess..

This song is how I kinda feel now about someone.I know its cool.Ni lah the song I wanted you to hear!

2009-02-10T18:30:00.001+08:00

almost here.

Brian Mcfadden songs are awesome!

I've thought and decided.I'm gonna give Singapore Idol 3 a try!If I do get in,I know its gonna be tough to balance things but I'm gonna do my best to make sure that I'll not neglect my studies and school but I can't do it alone,I need your support and encouragement people!cehhh..I say like very confident gitu dapat masuk eh..hahaha...Well I hope I do but it all depends cause I know that there are a lot of people who have nicer voice than mine!So Good Luck for all those taking part in the competition!

Dear someone,
GUESS WHAT?!

2009-02-08T20:11:00.000+08:00

i feel that something is not right.

2009-02-08T02:07:00.000+08:00

Home.

AIZAD!!

Whats with you man?!DECIDE!

Oh god,you guys may find this silly but I'm thinking whether I should try for Singapore Idol 3!Well I just can't decide.I don't even think I can sing that well,so what do I do?Somemore this year is my O LEVELS!Oh GOD!Why must Singapore Idol be this year?I want to try but at the same time,studies come first.

The POINT is:

SHOULD I TRY FOR Singapore Idol 3?

i need your opinions and comments people.

2009-02-01T15:53:00.000+08:00

have you opened the thing i send you?TEXT ME AFTER HEARING!

P.S:sweet kannn!hahaha..

2009-01-31T23:20:00.001+08:00

If tomorrow never comes

At last its the weekends!I've been like waiting for it the whole week!time passes by so smoothly and I just realise that its gonna be February!HellooO world!

My days are getting tougher to handle.man,i hate it when problems keep occuring one after another.People say that the heart knows the best decision if you believe in yourself but now,even I don't believe in what my heart says.I'm just scared that things will go wrong again.

What do I do?Ignore and just lead life as per usual or carry on and give it a try again?I don't even know if I should cause I'm just scared that you would give me the same treatment like the others did.I'm a human too okay and I love and hurt like others do.you are so hard to decode.I just want a normal and happy life.I want to give it a try but what if you're not willing?

tell me something...

2009-01-25T00:42:00.000+08:00

your guardian angel..

I lazy to blog so let the pictures do the talking!muahahaha!

The BOYS!

The way to FORT CANNING PARK!

She loves taking picture with me!haha!

Nama dia Nurliyana bte Muhammad Padik!

I was quite amaze when I saw her reading a book!

Concentrate oi!

She adores him!

Budak2 Sec 1 lelaki malu2 konon!

heee..ni testing camera jee..

This is the part where she really loves to take pictures with me!

Me and her..

again..

and again!

dia kesian tak pernah nmpk katak!JAKON!

hehe..kita lagi lahh!!

Lawakan dia!She put this picture as my screensaver!tak tau malu!

haha..okok thats all..byee!!

2009-01-19T21:31:00.000+08:00

BELIEVE OR NOT!I OWN THIS PS3 NOW!MUAHAHAHAHAHA!

I wanted a PS since I was 12 years old and 5 years later then I got it!It worthwhile cause this is the latest PS and its graphic are all powerful!Tapikan the game arrrr,grrrrrrr...EXPENSIVE SIA!I bought winning eleven 2009 and it cost me $70 just for one game!Nevermine,i must save and buy more games!hahaha.I'm gonna get lectures from my aunties this weekend I bet because this year I'm taking my O levels and I bought this machine which can distract me from studying!Well,I must manage my time and studies well.There's gonna be a lot of activities and plans coming up this year + all the remedials and night classes,life's gonna be full of challenges,excitement and downs too I guess.Lets just hope there'll be more of the excitement and happiness!hahaha.
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Everytime,I see you in school I ask myself,"should I give myself one more chance?"I said I'm over and out with love but it seems true.No matter how much I run from it,it will always be there.I tried many ways to avoid and hate this feelings of mine but in the end,I fall deeper into it,making it so hard to turn back and walk away.I don't wanna repeat my mistakes.

What should I do? :(

2009-01-17T23:16:00.001+08:00

I'll keep us together whatever it takes

hello earthlings!

someone said to me this,"eh,you haven't update your blog!".I know I haven't update my blog "nerdy human"!haha..

Well yesterday was a boring day.After school the girls said they wanted to practice singing and in the end it ended up with only me and tasha practicing our part.Well,I believe and trust that they are practicing on their own.Ok people,lets do our best and sing our best vocals out on that day ok!I love you all!So,its been 2 days and I've been going window shopping for the things I'm wearing on the performance day!I bought a red and pink polo!haha.Red polo cost $15 while Pink polo cost $39.I know its expensive,but its nice!I think I'll be wearing my black jeans and lets just hope I won't be limping too much on stage and people,pray for me that my cast will be opened on this 2oth jan ok!Thank YOU!

Today,went out of house at 9.30am and went to school for SNO practice!Went with two ex-siglapians/bestfriends!I tell you,with them kan,its like a total disaster seh!haha!They always make my day lahh,though sometimes not.So we practice with the teachers all and I took some pictures!Later I upload here ok and let you earthlings see!The teachers all blur and stress-up when playing the percussions!I was laughing and giggling at them while they were playing!Most importantly is that I caught miss chin on CAMERA!haha!Her face was very cute tau.She also blur-blur.haha.After the teachers went home,we boys stayed and did the drum parts for them.It turned out nice and with Mr Khamis guiding us,I can assure you that it will be a SPLENDID AND AWESOME SHOW!

Went to KFC ws after that to eat and I'm full till now!haha.

I'm scared you know.I'm scared that everything I have will be lost.Everyone that I know will go away from my life.I don't want the time to come.I want time to move slowly.Let me enjoy my time with my friends and love ones fully.There's this someone who I wanna know,I wanna know her deeper.I hope one day I'll know her.As for this another someone,let's start all over again.I know I am confusing but I mean it this time.I know I am short of time but if you're willing,I'll make it worthwhile and time will slow down on us.I really need you.This time,I need you to guide me and tell me what's right and wrong,what should be done and what should not be done.I've something to give you but I'll give when the time is right.

OKAY,
BYE EARTHLINGS!

2009-01-11T13:59:00.000+08:00

Ok,now I'm jealous!My cousin got his Nikon SLR D90!I'm still stuck with my Nikon SLR D80!Grrrrrrr!Nvm2,I'm gonna save up again and workworkwork!hahaha!Well,like people say,you'll do anything for the passion.This year I've got a lot of things in mind to buy and its gonna cost me a bomb!

The list of things I'm aiming to buy this year:
-Nikon D90
-Original Dunlop Wah Pedal
-New acoustic guitar
-Another Les Paul Guitar(Goldtop)
-Nike Airmax
-Lots of stylish clothes
-Delay Pedal
-New amp

Haha..got alot more!!Wait2,i go think first then later update again!heee..

byebye!

2009-01-10T11:47:00.000+08:00

everything we had

The old blog was too much of pains and stuffs and since it is a new year,I decided to open a NEW BLOG!2009,gonna be a fun,enjoyable,stressful and fast!

So lets see what's 2009 gonna be like!

School have been sooooooo dull and boringg!!Tapikan,I just know one of this girl!Nama dia amalina.Well my first impression of her was wrong.hahaha.She's friendly,obviously not stuck-up or sombong,she likes to laugh over the most lamest thing(yeah,dia insane sikit!haha) and she's in Girl Guides!Actually got somemore ah about her,tapi malas nak tulis ah.Well friend,I hope I'll get to know you better and improve on your self-esteem ok!heee..

O levels!Wow,I'm already getting excited speaking about it!hahaha.I'm gonna put in everything I've got and give my 125%!I'm gonna go into the Polytechnic of my choice which is either,NYP,SP or TP and get the course of my choice!I'm target points will be 16 and below!I wanna achieve at least one distinction in my Core subjects and a B's for the others!I can do it!No matter how hard it is,I'm gonna persevere and strive for it like I did for my N's and this time,I'll make sure that I'll help my friends with all I can along the way!Wooaahhh,so semangats!haha.

Mirror mirror on the wall,I'll strive to prove that your reflection is TRUE!haha,lame,I know!

ok byebye!